感 恩

最近发生好多事，太多事。。让我觉得我身处的环境不再熟悉，熟悉的面孔，陌生的心。。原来人的面具拿下来可以变另一个人，这该叫恐怖还是可悲?

太多的是是非非，只因我不够别人狡猾。。 

为什么就是要制造是非? 难道没有是非，日子会很难过吗? 

告诉你们，就是太多的是与非，让我觉得日子很难过！！！！！ 

事情还没完全解决，但总算平静了点。。。 

不想再去提了，当中很复杂，牵扯太多，也说不清。。 

感恩我有一个好爸爸，为这个家，为他的子女付出泪和汗的好爸爸。 

感恩我有几个好朋友，就在我最困扰，最无助时常常帮助我，鼓励我。也很感恩我有一个很要好的男伴，虽然感情有时会有磨擦，但是我们都对对方不离不弃，因为他，我才懂原来感情要珍惜。。 

人往往是贪心，自私的，有的时候得到的越多，反而失去的也更多。。 

简单也可以是一种幸福，可是就是很多人为了得到更好的生活却把自己推向复杂的世界。。 

我感恩我现在拥有的一切，起码我还有爱我的爸爸，朋友还有男伴，起码我不愁吃不愁穿，不必可怜挨饿 ！  

我感谢上帝还爱我。。 

 朋友们，要学会感恩  ♥

很 想 你

回 想 以 前 ， 才 知 道 原 来 在 你 身 边 其 实 是 很 幸 福 。 。 你 不 让 别 人欺 负 我 ，也 不 让 我 受 委 屈 。 。 你 知 道 我 的 自 尊 心 强 ， 好 胜 心 更 强 ， 又  倔 强 。 。 每 次吵 架 都 是 你 先认 输 ， 满 足 我 的 愚 昧 。 。

分开 了 ， 才 发 现你 对 我 的 用 心 。 。不 过 说 什 么 都 太 迟 了 ， 我连 那 句 最 不 该 说 的 话 都 说 出 口 了 。 。
真 心 那 句 ， 我 很 想 你 ！


满 满 的 遗 憾不 知 该 怎 么 表 达 ！


这 段 时 间 就 让 大 家 冷 静 吧 ， 在 一 起久 了 也 需 要 私 人 空 间 。 。 或 许 冷 静 一 段 时 间 ， 才 发 现 彼 此 真 的 不适 合 ， 也 不 一 定 。 。

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I love my family alot,just that the way i express is kind of rude...

Sometimes really tired of being their daughter when they put high expectation on me but i cant fulfill their expectation.. My fault of being so useless,my bad of unable to give what they want..


They give me a house to stay,a complete family with lots of love,money to buy whatever i want and education..
They pay for my education,pay for my everything,but i choose to gve up my studies in the end..
Its a long story and i dont wanna talk about it,its my fault to disappointed them...


Here i want to know am i a good leader to lead all the workers work hard for my parents? Am i a good daughter who can take over the family ? SIGH....


In the end,wanna say that i LOVE my family no matter in what...

Tired and lots of regrets in my life....

I never love myself in the passed,never appreciate what i had...

If i have a chance,i wouldnt let the mistake happen again,sigh~

Thankful i have some good friends who always take good care of me when im in trouble,and thankful that im not that girl who still live with her passed... Had really big lessons with my passed life,and now i believe i can live with a better life and never repeat those mistake again..

Thanks my friends they never give up of me and always support me,advice me... Thanks GOD for giving me such goods friends,thanks GOD for giving me a complete family with a good background,thanks everything... I love my friends,love my family and love GOD..

People,appreciate what u have now and dont put urself into a risk,love urself and give urself a good life... Dont regret when something really bad happen to u because u never think about urself before do something...

Everything will be ok, the pain wont be longer ...

I know im strong !!! 

Last article about - YOU

Here i would like to say YES,IM SURE I WOULDN'T DO ANY STUPID BECAUSE OF YOU

 ANYMORE.. I promise to myself that i'll only treat you as my friend forever,though i don't know if we still are friend but i know i have to let go... And now im gonna let it go,everything will be fine..

U are just so charm and so smart for me till i couldn't take my eyes of you,what a perfect guy infront of me,haha....

I like smart guy,especially smart guy with mixed blood... But u not belong to me..

I've done lots of stupid things and its annoying u sometimes,SORRY hehe...

Hope you still would say HI to me if we meet in sumwhere sumday,my perfect guy  :p

YOU

I know that im not perfect...

Thats why i choose to stay right beside u and watching u,concern u...

Trust me,there is someone i will never forget and that is YOU...

Don't think ur not good enough because u are perfect for me :)

不只是朋友

不只是朋友-黃小虎  (lyric)

你從不知道我想做的不只是朋友
還想有那麽一點點自私的佔有
你身邊的女人總是美麗
你追逐的愛情總是遊戲
在你的眼裏  我是你可以對飲言歡的朋友
你從不吝嗇催促我分享你的快樂
你開心的時候總是揮霍
你失意的片刻總是沉默
在你的眼裏   我是你可以依靠傾吐的朋友
你從不忘記提醒我分擔你的寂寞
你從不知道我想做的不只是朋友
還想有那麽一點點的嬌縱















我們的友情因爲我的任性就這樣沒了。。
怪我自己吧！！
每次說會放開，會看開。。多久了？卻還在原點執著。。


或許你有你的迷人之処而你不知道。
或許你覺得你很坏，但是男人不坏，女人不愛。。何況你本性不坏。
在我心裏最深處，那全都是你。。


你現在一定很討厭我吧！
對不起。。。
 千言萬語，我只想說“對不起”
原諒我的自私和無知。。
 昨晚真的不知和你說過些什麽
只知道那時喝醉了的我其實很想你，很想再看到你，也很希望能夠再看到你。。


對不起。。。。



:(

Finally i turned to be an adult,so happy~~

Thanks to my daddy and mammy,i wont be here without them...

Thanks and love you :)

Really thanks my friends for those came to rock my party and sent me birthday wish ..

Im appreciate,really thanks... Had a great time with u guys,love u guys so much :)

my sexay dancing partner

John,always bully me...

my bff, Merrie

Emey,my bff ever in my life

How i wish anybody can give me a birthday surprise...
I plan my party every year and no surprise,the only surprise is when i was 17th,my classmates made for me...
Sigh**


hahahaha........

huhu

How many bottles do i need for 17-20 persons ?

How much the total i have to pay for this ?

Where is the nice place to celebrate my birthday ?

What should i wear for that night ?

OMG,its annoying and killing me........

Haiz..........................

:(

Memories

Dreamed something and im really sad after woke up in the morning...

Its like repeating/telling the story between me and my ex,and also remind me about his friend also... A little boy i ever admire before,lol....

He is a cute boy,2 year younger than me,very good in singing but EGO..

Lots of memories with them and sigh cause now we are just like stranger...

Is that what we called 'FRIENDSHIP' ??

Well,i have to say THANKS to them,they ever came to my life and colored my life... Nice to know them,especially when the boy making noise or dump his smell face to me cause i did something that i shouldn't did like smoking,dirty dance with any strange guy or disappear suddenly in the party and make him worry i guess...

Lolz,what the fucking nice memories huh   :P

Im goin to 21st this Aug,have to say BYE to my past and i know i CAN'T keep my horrible life like a kid,don't know how ta take care myself... Lots of memory just cross my mind and it seems good for me :P hahahaha  

Anyway,im still thinking and planning how to celebrate my 21st b'day... Kinda annoying :P

Thinking lot of things,so mess........

Dont know what to do cuz im totally lost....

Im cheating myself...

What the fuck is this ? I couldnt believe this i thot i ady let go but im not....

This is fuck !!!!

Anyways,thats ok........ I cant say anything and I have nothing to say about this.....

What would u do if i cant be with u anymore ?

Will u happy or feel sad ?

What i meant for u actually ? Do u really care about me ?

This is what i want to know....

I never expect that u can be a rich man and give me everything what i want,i just want ur love....

Treat me gently,always understand me....

Do u know how i feel everytime when u talk rudely to me ?

I start thinking whats love for and whats love is ???

这一刻我觉得我是幸福的，好喜欢这种感觉。。
甜甜的，我很享受。。



♥ baby milo ♥

My mind is blank........empty........

Start thinking about it over and over again.......

Negative thinking!!!

U wont know how bad i feel,how tired am i and how much i care about u...

Sad.......

I couldnt find anybody to talk with...

This is so FUCK !!! Really FUCK man !!!!!!!!!

Just realise that how cute babies are....

Pregnant is a blessed from GOD...

Appreciate what u have,and loves ur mom always because having a baby is not easy...

To those who dont wanna have a baby so far,please dont get urself into a risk because baby is a life given from GOD,not from u....
To those who have baby,please take good care of ur baby,make sure u can give ur baby a good life and good education...

A story that i heard last night was totally remind me how much i ever love that guy,but he reject me and now we still friend...But not that close as before anymore..

Im thinking why he reject me ? Because im not good enough ?

No matter how,the feeling never gone and i dont know what to do....

He is the right guy who im looking for....

Anyway,i just want to know the reason why he reject me ?


Dont want to lost a friend but still want to know the reason why been rejected,stupid right ?
Totally blur and down,really down !!!!

Stupid eva !!!!

Nobody can totally understand my feeling right now,nobody can give me a warm hug and comfort me.... 

Nobody care... The one i care like no time for me,no space for me,no patient to comfort me...

I care him still,but dont know whats wrong with him recently... He just like can get hot so easily,even i complain that im unwell he also said he stress to hear that...

I never expect that he could 100% take care of me,but at least hope he can comfort me when i just needs his care... Izzit over to expect someone to do this for me ?

My grandpa just pass away,the thief visit my house in the early morning and i didnt lost my thing but only my housemate she lost her laptop and digital camera... Make me wonder,what the purpose the thief want to do this ? Maybe this person observe four of us so long time already.... 

Alot of things happend and i have no mood and cannot pay fully attention to do my revision while my final exam will be on next wednesday...

Im really stress....

I didnt expect anyone to know how stress or how bad i feel,but at least i hope the one i care can totally know my feeling cause he know what happend on me and he is my someone... Seems we have some prob and we need talk maybe,i dont know if he still have the patient to talk to me or listen to me or not.. Just want him to know i care about him,hope he can appreciate and please dont make me feel hurt anymore....

I lost 2 important persons in my life,can i just forget like nothing ever happen ? 

Its ok,i dont know what could i say and what else should express here...

OMG

Omg, Omg !!!!!!

Im dying~~ KILL me please~~~!!!

No one can imagine how boring am i, oh SHIT !!!!

Im looking Mangkuk Ass....

Any one see si Mangkuk Ass please call to 999 inform me, heeeee :D

Haiyo,too boring la.. Need ur jokes !!!

Aduiiiii~~~~~~

Im gonna die,KILL me please :(

Damn fucking bored !!!

Mangkuk Ass,

Mangkuk Ass,

Mangkuk Ass~~~~

Mangkuk Ass is better or chubby ass ? or cute ass ? sexy ass ? Perhaps HOT ASS,wahahahahahaha...... 

p/s: hey you,dont marah ya... heheheh,im just saying the TRUTH,buahahahahaha.....

Iam thinking to quit my studies after finish this semester,then either i will take a part-time course or working...
This is what i can do if i don't wanna study...

Going back KK later,miss my housemates,miss my bed there,my friends and CLUBBING !!! hahahaha

Hey you,sorry for all what i've said and what i've did before...
No matter how,u still my good friend...
Thanks for being my friend....
U're smart,good looking,funny and "HOT".... But too bad im not ur taste,buahahahahaha.......


Anyone wanna go Taiwan with me ?
The ticket is so cheap,only RM423-479 something,2 ways...
Boring here,need to go somewhere jalan2 sambil pok cari jodoh.... hahahahaha
just kidding :P


It is 5:54am now,the air so fresh and cold... love this
KK won't have such fresh air,gonna miss the air here,hehehe...


Going back later,so excited !!! hehehe
Boys and Gurls,don't forget give me a call or text me if u guys have any nice plan ya :)
hehehehe~

忘记一个人真的有那么难吗？为什么我脑海都是你？
你的笑容，你的声音，你的眼神。。。

忘了你原来是这么难。。。。
说好要忘记，却违背对自己的诺言。。
有什么药是让人吃了会失忆？让我不再想你。。。

Miss him so so much.........

I know thats the end between me and him,and i know i should not think about him anymore because its my decision to forget and leave him...

How i wish he could send me a msg even just to say HI or BYE or just asked me to TAKE CARE MYSELF,its enough for me.... 

Im stupid and crazy right ?

Just wanna express my feeling here..........

I did sumthing for him,not much but its about what he mean to me and i just want to see him happy...

He did not know what i ever done,unfortunately i cant do anything for him in the future...

Im forcing myself to forget him,i need time and dont know how long...

Will do my best anyway....

Eva,jia you !!!!

SMILE pls~~~

:[

*feel wanna cry*

以后再也不會。。。。

以后不會再等你online,
不會再約你去夜店,
不會在三更半夜喝醉打給你,
想你的時候也不會再信息你,
再也不會.......

我知道不管我做什么，都是在你的世界范圍以外。。。
很感謝你這段時間陪伴我，做我的好朋友。。
真的很謝謝！
我沒力氣再讓自己這么傷心難過。。。


沒有你，或許會很孤獨，少了好朋友的陪伴。。但是我要學會堅強！
知道你前晚踢足球腳受傷了，好好照顧你自己。。。
有沒有我的存在，對你都沒影響吧。。
保重～～

回憶

嘗試着把你從我心里放下，刪除你的手機號碼，甚至刻意引藏你Facebook的主頁，就是努力的讓自己放下你在我心里的位置....
不管我怎么努力，你在我心里已經留了個位置，想你，在乎你，關心你是我自然而然會做的事...


以為試着跟他培養感情就能忘記你，但我錯了。。
很想說，以后我再也不會出現在你面前，不會再讓自己看到你跟美女有說有笑而獨自傷心...
以后的日子會很想你，會很辛苦..
但為了你的幸福，為了保護我自己，離開你是必須的吧....


不懂你會不會在乎我的離開？
我想你應該不會吧？
從今我少了一個要好的朋友，你的笑容，24小時的笑話都將會是我以后的回憶...
我很喜歡你，真的很喜歡你。。。你知不知道？
但對你來說，都不重要！！


黑：
原諒我對你的冷言冷語，我只不過是樣貌普通，又矮又肥的小叮當。。
你到底有沒有喜歡過我，已經不重要，你也不會在乎吧？
剛才那樣我真的受不了，反正有沒有我，你也都無所謂，對不對？
不懂以后有沒有機會再告訴你，
但最后一次想告訴你，我喜歡你，喜歡你到超乎我的想象，喜歡到快控制不了。。
好好保重！
真心祝你幸福快樂。。。。。。




對不起！！

in hurt

Its hurt when i know this is the way how u treat me....

Why do i care so much about u ? I don't know....

SORRY~~~


how i wish i could relax my mind don't think about u but i can't,what i can say is HURT ME MORE,so i can forget u as soon as possible.........








*SIGH*

昨晚不顧他的感受傷害他，那時覺得無所謂，但是一覺醒來回頭想想，這樣對他我真的算很過分。。。
曾經不止一次傷害他，最近變本加厲，一直讓他擔心又傷心。。。
早上宿醉起不了床，打給他要他過來陪我。其實他也宿醉，但聽到我快生氣的語氣他也只好過來陪我。。。
等了很久，等到生氣了，然后氣到無力，他才到。。。
我：為什么那么久？
他：剛才突然被警察 block，衰！！！
我：*靜靜*


兩個人，一個坐在床，一個坐在椅子上，不言不語好久好久。。。
突然他走過來抱我，很緊很緊。。久久，他突然說了一句：其實我是真的關心你，知道嗎？
這時，眼淚控制不住的飆出來，我知道我傷害他有多深。。






















才知道原來昨晚他因為我那句傷人的話,一個人在上班時間喝酒喝到很醉，就在店里人潮最旺的時候突然走掉。。一個人走路，從 KK TIMES SQUARE 走到 API API 約朋友喝酒，還醉到在朋友面前哭，包包幾時被人偷走也不知道，回家時一度還走錯走到來我家樓下。。。












昨晚傷他那么深，隔天他看到我還問我是不是喝很醉，幾點回家？
千千萬萬個“對不起”，卻說不出口。。。




我是不是很壞？
















想說我現在相信他對我心意了。。。。

Sorry to myself and my Family

原來這些日子以來我一直都在傷害自己。。。
一直不敢承認自己的過錯，一直在逃避。。。
以為那是解壓，其實是傷害。。。
離開家人多久就傷害自己多久。。。
別人看我好像活的多姿多彩，但背后的代價于傷害沒人知道。。


人家常說：家是最好的避風港！但是對我來說家人卻是我壓力的源頭。。
也就因為這樣所以我不想回家，也很不愿意回家！

Hope i can leave here,start my new life...

Sorry to my family,especially my parents..

I know i disappointed them...

Sorry dad and mom,im really sorry ! 

Sorry to myself also,keep hurting myself...

WOW

Went to Rumba with my cousin,her bf and my aunty....

Syok Syok Syok !! haha....

We drink 2 bottles of white wine...

Wah,dat 2 bottles of white wine can kill me....

Abit drunk i guess,Lol....

Someone asked me to spend a nite with him and he can take care of me while take care of his gf oso..

I want to say YES but i can't,the money is seducing me but im hurting the gurl if i accept her bf's offer cuz i know that gurl and I don't wanna hurt her...

Well,syok juga la cuz suddenly got people offer me like that....

Means im still valuable,wakakakakka.....

:P

累了，真的累了。。。
聽着他幫我下載的歌，越聽越傷心。。
我感受不到他，他似乎離我很遠。。


才兩個月的感情，有想放棄的念頭。。。
說不出想放棄的理由，只是覺得大家開始在撐。。
我也覺得有點被拘束，很沒自由既沒安全感。。


很亂，好亂。。。
在想沒有他的日子會是怎樣？
繼續在一起又會是怎樣？



只能說多了一個伴在身邊是個錯誤的選折！！
要是沒有他，我就不用煩。。
要是沒有他，現在的我一定很自由。。


要是分開對大家都好，那我會選折分開。。。。

Haiz

He gets another job offer from somewhere,and he is considering about that cuz their payment quite high for him....

Will let him go to chase his dream if he want,but surely i will change my status to be SINGLE if he really decide to go....

I know what will happen after he go,both of us will betray each other i guess... Hahaha

Really no confidence to keep a relationship goes far,and i always confused what LOVE is ?

I do like someone but i don't know do i LOVE or i LIKE....

Keep thinking and thinking,my gosh !!!

Wanna go clubbing to release my tension,but no one wanna go with me....

hurm...... miss u

miss your 7-11(24hours) joke which can make me LOL....

=(

只能說最近的我很不開心，已經很努力的讓自己開心。。。
但一個人的時候，就會想很多東西。。。
不自覺又不開心了。。。

Va，加油加油！！！
哈哈。。。。
要開心！！
笑 :)

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己成为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.



如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言是一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.


如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

Complicated & Speechless~~

Alot of things wanna express here,my feeling so complicated this few days..

but im SPEECHLESS,hahaha......

hrmmmm~~

Wanna go clubbing,want to get drunk !! 

I need alcohol !!! 

huhu.......

Anyone wanna get drunk with me ?


:)

因為淚水快奪眶而出，才會努力擠個笑臉來掩飾；
因為懦弱的不堪一擊，才會想要表現堅強來掩護。

愛不會只差那么一點點；
懂得欣賞你的優點，
包容你的缺點，
才是真的愛你。

Force myself to be happy and keep smiling in front of people...

Pretending that im really happy...

Its good,at least i have a chance to practice acting and pretend... Lol

I know i was stupid to thinking so much,hahaha sorry ^^

Don't worry,im strong enough no matter from my heart or my body size... Wakakakakak

Need a time so i could travel to somewhere,anyone can accompany me ? Hehe

Perhaps Bali or Thailand ? 

Eva,smile banyak2 ......

hahahah~~~~

Sorry guys to read my mess blog,huhu..

Well wish u guys Happy always and please Miss me always ya,lol !!!

不 屬 于 我 的～ 我 和 他

終于知道真相，我和他是不可能的。。
原來他心里一直藏着一個人很久了，我走不進他的世界。。
很難過，滿腦海都是你，我好像已經很久沒有這種強烈的感覺了。。
不過認真想想，其實也好，一直困擾我這么久的問題現在總算有了答案。
就如他所說的，如過是單方面的情感，那又何必勉強？


我從沒想過要擁有他，只想好好靜靜的喜歡他。
或許時間能慢慢消淡我對他的感覺。
謝謝他昨晚陪我到天亮，也感謝他很常時候聽我訴說我的心事。但我想昨晚他不知道我口中的那個人其實就是他吧，我也不想讓他知道。
昨晚真的有股沖動想抱他然后告訴他其實我喜歡的是他，他明明就在我旁邊可是我卻得編個故事說我喜歡的是別人。因為不想我們之間多了分尷尬，所以我壓抑自己不要說出來。
我不希望因為那份尷尬，影響我們之間的友情。
剛才他臨走前吻了我，那個吻會是我珍貴的回憶。今天不知明天事，好怕這個吻會是我們之間最后的回憶，我會好好保留這份回憶。。
謝謝你的吻


你那特別的頭發，濃濃的眉毛，堅挺的鼻子，薄薄的上唇，還有你的全部都會是我記憶里的一部分。感謝上帝讓我遇見特別的你，起碼你讓我的生活多了份快樂。
前言萬語，只能說謝謝你！



感謝上帝也很謝謝你！
希望我們友誼永固，祝你幸福！

Happy Chinese New year to all of u :)

Im going back KK tomorrow,yahoooo !!!

Hahaha,damn boring here,didn't get angpao somemore..

Quite mess lately because im thinking something that i shoudn't think about...

Who can i tell ? I know im thinking too much already,but i just lost my control to think about that...

OMG,do i need help ? or better just shut up and don't let anybody know ?

I think just talk about it when i back KK....

Well,my CNY is bad... I get sick and never get well before CNY till now...

and i didn't get many angpao oso,all because im sick !!! haiz.....

wat a bad CNY,kelian ~~~

See u guys in KK ya,i really miss KK la..

Miss Qbar,my frens,my housemates and my bed room there...wakakakaka

Chinese New Year

Chinese New Year is just around the corner,im  goin back this friday..

Wish all my friends have a happy Chinese New Year and dont eat too much oily food,healthy come 1st :))

To those driver have to drive long distance please drive save and dont drink and drive... or u will get big SAMAN !!!

My babe is thinking to resign cuz he have the offer from another club,thanks God he get the offer :))

Now i know who should i care,thanks for ur carrying babe....Sorry i always pissed off with u and bring some shit to u,Sorry babe hehe....

Wanna give u bear hug and big kiss,hahaha.... Muackssss~~

My mom called me just now,she told me that my grandma is sick now.....

Really worry about her,God please bless my grandma that she will be ok...

Ama (mean grandma in hokkian),must be strong ya :)) Love u and i know God will bless good person,must take care urself and wait me go back there... cuz i miss u !!!! Ama,i miss u !!! prepare my big angpao,hehe...

突然腦袋想了很多事情，很多東西。。。
其實我根本就很麻木的過日子，什么事都不聞不問，只求自己開心就好。。。
有時真的覺得自己很自私，我想身邊人都會這么覺得吧。。。
對不起，請原諒我這個自私鬼每次帶麻煩給大家，這么大個人還不會照顧自己。。。


腦袋真的突然閃了很多東西。。。。
不懂我還能不能撐完這個學期末，已經無心再念書了。。。
萬一他們知道我念不了書，會不會要我回去幫他們？我真的不想回去但又無心讀書。。。
做工嗎？很煩很亂。。。

以為這個七月大家能夠一起去旅游，結果還是泡湯了。。。
有點失望，畢竟期待這么久了。。。。
也計劃了很多，還上網找了那么多資料。。。
現在。。。。。。。。。。哎，別說了！全泡湯了。。。

這兩天頭腦一直出現不該出現的人，明明抱着的是他但是心里卻想着另一個他，我這樣也算過分吧！！
他每次說他真的疼我在乎我，不懂那句真那句假，因為我就是感覺不到他。。。就算在他旁邊抱着他，也只有不安，腦袋不知在想什么。。。  可能我已經陷入了另一個他的陷阱吧，明知道我們之間不會有任何發展，卻偏偏不能控制這笨蛋腦袋！！！



笨蛋！！！！大笨蛋！！！！
干嗎想那么多？豬頭哦？！
明知道不能想那么多，干嗎還想？
瀟灑點不行嗎？！！！
 豬！！！！

Sorry.......

I've did something crazy last night,but luckily im still alive...

I dont know why,i just hope i can gone like that last night...

So stupid !!!

We fight last night,i blame him cause he have no time to come my place always...

but actually he have the reason why he don't want to come,is my fault again...

I know he is facing some financial problem now,but im just curious why he keep shut up in front of me ?

I mean i can help anything as where i can,at least share with me la,come on...

He always say he do care about me,but is this the way he should treat me ? Hide his own problem and let me blame him always like a stupid....

Sorry Meng,Sorry didn't help in anything whenever u have problem,Sorry i always pissed off with  small matter and Sorry cause im not a good girlfriend... Sorry for everything...

Miss him suddenly when im typing this blog........

I will let go everything,i mean it......

Both of us are suffering in this relationship,especially you... right ?

Blackboy :

Sorry about last night,i might too emo liao...

really sorry....

Well,i will be strong ! Don't worry me,thanks for all of u guys's carrying..

And sorry if i always make u guys worry about me...

郁悶

這幾天心情都有點郁悶，我們好像真的很多問題，但他選折沉默。。。。讓我煩亂的是我們之間到底是什么問題我卻都不知道，因為他寧愿沉默。。。

在他的背后，有一個可以讓我快樂一整天，甚至會讓我一直在想着他的另一個人。。。
我知道我們之間不會超過友誼的界限，或許是我貪新鮮，也或許跟他的溝通方式很輕松，我們無話不談，天南地北什么都可以聊。。
我很壞吧？

但是我跟那個他卻沒那么好聊，他會跟我分享他的生活點滴,生活上的每個小細節；而我也偶爾會說說我的事情。。感覺就像你分享你的，我說我的，沒有互動，就完完全全是個很表面的互動而已。。。
是他有時太忙了，我不能理解的自私，因為這樣讓兩個人好像越來越沒交集，更沒默契。。。

再是這樣，我還真不知道能撐到幾時。。。
 
現在大家都在計劃着七月一起去旅游，好期待。。
希望能趁這個機會好好輕松，看看外面的世界，享受享受。。。

p/s：喂，你們最好不要放飛機說突然臨時有時不能去！！！嘻。。。。。

Tired and Boring~~

Start boring already,don't know why... Maybe because u always busy with ur work,we seldom stay together...

U have ur own life style,u have ur work to do but u can't stop me to go clubbing with my friends right ?
Everynight I stay at home and waiting for u to coming but how many days u didn't come already ?
U can meet ur friends and always busy with ur work but why I can't go clubbing with my friends ?
Tired and Boring................................

How I wish that we never know each other,because I can't accept the way how u care me... Its over for me,sorry...

Mind is blank,wanna go out but don't know where to go and don't know who can bring me out...

Wish the bad gor2 is here so we could hang out again,hmmmm ~~

難過。。。

在想我是不是快失去你了，不懂。。。
只是我真的不能接受原來那晚你曾經偷偷跟在我背后，一直到我回家。。
這樣的舉動讓我覺得你很瘋狂！！
如果說你不相信我，那就算了，兩個人在一起沒意義。。。。
心好痛，好難過。。。。
在想，如果我們不曾認識，那該多好。。。。

Huhu.....

Is quite disappointed when he said he can't hang out with me on this Thursday.... I feel like wanna cry because Im expecting too long and finally this what I get....

And now I just get a msg that he told me he will stay in his friend house tonite...
I just wanna fuck ppl now,really not in mood...

1st I thot he can bring me go to the dental,but NO....
2nd I thot we can go dating but NO
3rd I hope he can stay with me whenever I need him but NO !!!!

He asked me to understand him,ya Im trying to understand him but do he understand me actually ?
Did he know what I need and what I care ?
I dont know........ I cant stay calm and keep my mind clearly,shit !!!
Maybe we just get into the relationship,everything still not stable...

I should not expect too much actually,its my fault also.....
Well,for now I really dont have mood to talk to him...

What a shit !!!!

Hehe......

Is thinking to go for dentist actually,but lazy to wake up because someone is sleeping beside me and we sleep so sweet and tight,hahaha.......
So I'll asked my housemate,JonJon accompany me go to the dental clinic tomorrow,hihihihi.....
Getting better today because someone take care of me for whole night :)

We are so surprise see Jon Jon suddenly appear,haha...... Finally came back KK liao,haha...
Planning go cinema watch PANANORMAL ACTIVITY & CHIPMUNKS,hehehe.. Very good movie I heard,cant wait cant wait I just Cant wait to go for movie !!!! buahahahahah...........

miss my babe owh ~ hehe

*My Babe*

My babe is working in a bar,he is abit shy for me...hehe

I cant believe that he approach me suddenly because we never speak to each other even I went to the bar so many many times,and Im still thinking maybe he is not serious in this relationship....huhu

Hope he is serious with our relationship :P

Scare to get hurt again.....

Anyway,I wanna say something here... I miss u so much and come faster,can't wait to see u babe,Lolz.....

Love is such a sweet thing and everything u feel good with Love,but once u get hurt u'll feel like u're goin to the Hell.... Its horrible and terrible !!! 

p/s: Babe,could I kiss with my gay friend again next time when Im drunk ? Lolz.........

CRAZY !!!

The 1st thing I'll do everytime I woke up is SWITCH ON my laptop,then sign in my FB and my Blog,haha...

I dont know what u guys think,maybe it is crazy but I really dont care and dont even mind about this...

I went Gay bar with my friends as usual to watch the Diva show,really have fun there and I start getting drunk after drink 1 shot of  Tequilla pop and 3 glass of Long Island,their Long Island is so so nice.. hehehe...

Then something was happend because I kissed with my GAY friend infront of my BF !!!! hahahahaha.........

Omg, I just cant believe I dare to do this infront of my BF... They said we kissing so long but I dont think so,maybe around 2 mins... Lolz,would u guys or u girls dare to do as what I do ? hahaha,i know Im crazy and they all know my BF is angry... But thanks GOD my BF's EQ is very good,still can control :P 

Im trying to apologize and I even asked him to kiss me ( am I really crazy ? ) but he dont want,he said :The gay ever touched ur lips and I dont wanna kiss u because u hurt me..

My friends laugh at me because Im crazy,how dare am I to do this infront of my BF...

Finally and luckily my BF came to my place and accept my apologize,pheeww ~  

What a Crazy and Funny nite !!! Oh yeah oh yeah ~ I wanna crazy again,Lolz.....

Anyway,just a  friend and he is gay,it is not a big matter... 

Hacker !!

My mind is crazy after came back from hometown,dunno what im thinking....
Well my mood was really bad and down till go mamak alone at 1am sumthing just to buy cigarete...

Its make me crazy like hell when i had a really bad toothache and then i know my msn & fs is hack by someone...
Its my fault also cuz i shouldn't let him know all about this... And now he deny what he've done,i dont know what he thinking cuz i didnt make any wrong or defend him... He is crazy and stupid !!!

Whatever,im just trying to control my temper and cool down...

Iam new

Hello world :) i just create my own blog,hehe... wanna share my life here,happy new year 2010 to u guys... wish u guys dreams come true and happy always :)